She thought as she know- that it was all smooth, she had it all under control, her control;Rising up daily to a morning glass of whisky as I, at the time was accomplishing my first sessions of routine tasks as assignments by my supervisors at work.
To meet the bills, all of them was all that filled my mind,and table at home; Electricity, security, medical, phone, school fees, maid gas…
Having her hair done, nails a fine dress, a picnic with her friends, a visit to her family, new things in replacement of the old ones were her desires and unstoppable demand.
Marriage we had hoped for and happiness out of it we would achieve; my family on my neck for it, friends asking why I hadn’t yet. I had now achieved it and was facing it- happily?!
Blinded by her beauty at first was the spell that caged me from happiness, and ‘my peace of mind’; and now a change I noticed in her; Was she the one I once knew jumping with, as the crowd praised in admiration of ‘our love’ .I wondered if it was love still!…
Moody she could turn-out, as I mentioned a delay in payments of the bills or my failure ti acquire that desired ‘outfit’
I had swallowed my pain, pride, grieve, pride, anger, worry, tears, sorrow…that I still carried. I had indeed kept it all away not from her!, but from our two lovely kids- they were innocent.
What had blinded her from reading this?!- but she was meant to, understand me better, at least; I still too wondered why she hadn’t- This increased my worry!
This I live to still regret, every time our lovely kids pose the same question; “Why did you have to separate with mum?” to which I reply, we didn’t, we are just not living together. I can see the dissatisfaction on their innocent faces, but I back it up with, “You will soon enough understand this as you get older,” and I hope and pray they do.
Her?, I don’t know what she answers them!. I didn’t wish for this, the children, our children suffering from their parents’ guilt caused by what turns out to be a ‘split family’. It was meant to be ‘Till death do us apart’ but …
Andy's Sight 
Humm!!….yeah! this is to mean alot bt why and what could be the cause of seperation btn the married one? i wonder?
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There lots of reasons Simeon and that is one of them.See ‘Marriage’ is a topic in a lesson so complex yet we all need to fully understand it,but most just go ahead for it’s examination-yet with little or no knowledge about it. Thanks
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People not knowing God is one reason why they fail in marriage. They take full control of their marriage . They want to be in charge of of everything and forget that its not about them but about Him the creator of marriage.
Everyone want everything to be about them . They enter in this marriage expecting something in return . If i love you this much then you supposed to do this and this. They become selfish.To some its like a business!!!
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A ‘Business’ I love that Miss Stellah. But why have many though of this institution as a ‘Money making Avenue’?
Thank you so much dear
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Marriage is not about two people. I mean Man and Woman. Marriage is about God. When two come together they become one body one soul which is God. Ephesians 5:31-32.The two are just there to model God. We need to understand that marriage is not about two people coming together, have sex and produce children. All we need to understand is that in this world we don’t own anything not even our marriages. It all belongs to God bible says it Psalm 24:1 Of David. A psalm.The earth is the LORD’s,and everything in it, the world, and all who live in it. And after understanding that then we have a relationship with our God first because The Bible says God is at work in everyone’s life. “So that they should seek the Lord, in the hope that they might grope for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us.” (Acts 17:27) , you cannot love another before loving God. When you love God you are able to love yourself .After loving yourself then your able to love another person. When two people understand that very well they will never fail in marriage. Because when you know and understand how patient God has been with you then your able to be patient with your partner and even forgive their mistakes because you were forgiven too.
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Thanks indeed dear. But there seems a misconception in understanding it all. Don’t you think so?
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Quick question.
To the ancient African Traditional society, which we still term as backward, and primitive- why was the marriage institution stronger than it is today?
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I still believe in marriage and in love…but every time I read stories like this, it saddens me…I am certain marriage, love and understanding still work;however, complex it might seem.
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Ooooh, this didn’t and wasn’t meant to lower your esteem dear, but to help you take caution. Thanks dear
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